well idk what to say about some things that i want to do well for
1. my heart and mind are thinking two different things on what to do with my relationship.. heart telling me to stay with him because it will be worth it in the end.. mind telling me to leave him because i’m going to be getting hurt a lot more later on and its going to be a waste of your time.
2. Hating the fact that we’re a state away, feeling so angry with you at time, i want to break up but then the feeling goes away
a good relationship is understanding the others situation… i can understand it, its just sometimes i feel like i put to much effort into our relationship, i keep telling myself to not talk to you, but when i get a text from you, i get happy because i don’t feel like i’m forgotten. i love you i really do.. i know its this long distance.. i try everything i can to talk to you, i understand that your busy.. but also remember your busyness can make me drift away from you, you and i both know that, that’s not what we want.. i know your working really hard to get me out there, i know it will take time.. i’m just tried of all this, i want someone that will be there, show me love [you can’t right now, because of work and that you have your own life out there and trying to manage it] i’m your girlfriend for crying out loud! the more i don’t hear from you, the more i get unhappy.. happiness can’t come from others or something it comes from within.. i do get happy, i would like at the end of the day, just talk to my boyfriend, but that happens very rarely and a part of me is breaking down and giving up, but i know i’m strong its just hard because i can never see you again..
i say “i love you” like i’m not going to see or hear from you for a very long time